aku adalah angin...

selalu mengampuni diri?


haha! lawak apakah?!


bukan kah lebey indah kalau pengampunan itu datang dari Tuhan,
dan pentingnya, dari sesiapa pun yg pernah teraniyakan atas sikap tidak bena kamu?

"there is nothing i can do but listen. no, u never alone, dear. i cannot imagine the torture u must be going thru, but i will always watch ur back. this is just another battle we have to fight and i don't have any answers and neither do u. but we both know we'll find a way regardless."

as i put the phone down, i thought hard about my own plight, trying to push the images of desire far away from my mind. sekuat mana pun cuba bertahan, i'm still human and one way or another, i am going to falter in my step regardless. as much as i want what i want, some mistakes when done cannot be undone. and i already lost two pple yg in a way dah beri kesan sgt besar dlm hidup aku. as for her, with dangerous game afoot, she stands to lose love of her life if she doesn't thread carefully.

dan aku, can only pray and pray and pray for her.

how much is a fren worth to u?

how far would u go before u can call someone ur fren?

how much would u do to call urself a friend?

how much would it take to keep that frenship alive?

how much would it cost u to kill ur friend?

could u kill ur best friend?

tentulah the immediate answer utk soalan terakhir adalah no, kan? tapi, what if it were to save the lives of hundred of pple. tak mungkin? what about thousands? millions? the entire world? bagaimana, would u be willing to kill ur fren… personally? sanggupkah kau melakukannya?

when pple say u can't put a price on frenship, they lie.

setiap sesuatu dlm dunia ini ada nilainya. setiap org has their own currency. persoalannya… what is ur price? how much would it take to do the things u really wouldn't do?

all prices bergantung sepenuhnya on the values u hold true in urself. how much u value the things u hold on to depends on ur outlook on the world u live in. kau selalu bercakap tentang benda2 yg di mata khalayak holds noble qualities… but more often that not, u do not follow them.

u are hypocrite.

u are driven by ur own self interests and deny in urself the inability to perform the noble deeds u often tell urself to do. hakikatnya, u have ur own pricetags that life would always pay up on. more often than u think, u are caught in ur own moral and ethical dilemmas sbb kau lupa that life doesnt give a demmm about how much ur frenship is worth or how much it's going to cost u to do it. life just gives u a choice to live for urself or with urself.

so could u kill ur best friend?

it's ur call anyway. whether u save just ur friend or the lives of many. it's just how much it's going to cost u. the only question remaining is this.

could u live with urself in the end either way?

could u?

or maybe... u just did?

she just realized just how pple live thru facebook. its like everybody knows how everybody else is doing, or how much fun they’re having with their lives right now, or vice versa, thru facebook. pple send birthday greetings thru facebook, rsvp for events thru facebook, make new friends on facebook, find old friends on facebook.


as a matter of fact, she just accepted few frens request on her facebook account, from frens she knows quite well even without facebook.


she's not a net junkie na-ah, so today she spends most of her time trying to understand facebook by clicking whatever things that could be clicked on facebook. she even tries to search few names she could remember from her past and gets high if she found any. she does NOT dare to add anyone as her frens, yet. but my God... she gets soooo tuned out that she forgets to talk to pple!!!

yeah, looks like she finally succumbs to facebook.

good luck babe.