aku adalah angin...

life is one big war, indeed. semua org termasuk kau ibarat soldiers fighting an eternal battle di mana victory bermakna u will achieve contentment in life, maybe. but sekalipun kau succeed, u probably wouldn't even know it. u've been fighting this war for so long that u've forgotten what u're fighting for. u've forgotten what it means to rely back to back on the frens u trust. u've forgotten what it means to be in the arms of the person u love or to hold the hand and watch ur legacy grow up. u take this war for granted so much so that u're tearing urself up time after time becoz u forgot u're ekceli not fighting to survive… u're fighting to LIVE.

mungkin kedengaran agak pessimistic di situ, cynical even… but that's what life does to u. u start out carefree and innocent, then u get enlisted to fight for ur existance and it turns u into someone who can't see anything but the suffering u create in ur own world. tapi as cynical as u have become, consider urself lucky lah… cuba buka mata dan perhatikan betul2. how many pple actually do find some solace in this war? to still see some small hint of beauty and grace in a world built on uncertainty and self imposed misery. bertuahnya kau maseh mampu menyentuh lembut hujan, melihat cantiknya bulan, dan berbual dgn indah malam di tgh kalut kota.

u are soldiers alright… born into a world where u fight to live. u meant to die to ensure that ur future generation is better than u are now. tapi harus lah kan, u can't do that if 3/4 of the world gets so worked up over what they cannot change. memetik kata buddha, satu kepastian dlm hidup is that we all suffer. jadi bayangkan, kalau semua org suffer… no one said u can't turn it into ur advantage. tak berniat to go all masochistic or sadistic on pple, on u to be exact… just that there is a reason why u, and everybody else of course, suffer. if not to grow stronger for the future u're meant to build then what? kalau dlm military we push recruits to the limit to make them faster, stronger and better than they were. begitulah juga qaedahnya dlm hidup!

sebagai manusia semua org akan complain life sucks and what not. even pak2 imam berkopiah tu pun pandai complain kerajaan itu ini, rite? but did anyone not notice maybe that's how it's supposed to be? semua kepayahan dan kebertentangan itu only to make u better and stronger if u can overcome it. seems pretty logical, rite? so screw it all… so life is miserable, but u see what is supposed to be there, the only beauty and grace that all this suffering gives u. hope. hope that by surviving thru basic training, u can at least have a chance to make a better difference for not just ur future… but for frens u fight side by side, for the loved ones u hold on to and for the children who are ur future.

now, isn't that worth fighting for… isn't that worth dying for?