some pple know for a fact with a certain sense of disbelief i walk a hard life inside. some pple find it hard to believe that there is such thing as a life as hard as i describe it to be. tapi aku tau la kan i've had it tough becoz after all… hey, it is my life.
kalau bukan aku sendiri yg tau dan paham what i've been going thru all these years, who else does anyway?
but all in all when it comes down to it, no matter how much i may hate the life i live, no matter how much i may whine and complain about it when i have the chance, no matter how bad i merempan2 and menyoal2 on what has been happening… thanx God, i've always moved on.
no matter what, i have to keep moving on. but, that doesn't mean i can let go of it.
i've realised that yeah… there will be no love that can contend with the love i have for him. it's not that i won't give anyone else a chance, tapi aku rasa, what i feel for him (ok… belum past tense lagi) is one of a kind. it's the kind that would never die, the kind that comes back to menghantu-jerangkung in the middle of the night or even in the most secure part of my life. the kind that despite the hell raised on earth, it's still the slice of heaven very few ever see.
let it be said that somewhere in my head and heart, i know i have to have a little more sense for myself, but at least not without a degree of stubbornness that i'm known for. yea, aku keras atey, kepala batu… i know everybody knows that. but aku percaya some things are worth keeping all my life even though i walked up ahead from it.
even if it causes the nights of headaches and heartaches.
even if risks losing the chances for another person to love me.
some things are worth keeping in life for what they are.
it's just what a sentimental person is all about.
it's just what i am all about.
kalau bukan aku sendiri yg tau dan paham what i've been going thru all these years, who else does anyway?
but all in all when it comes down to it, no matter how much i may hate the life i live, no matter how much i may whine and complain about it when i have the chance, no matter how bad i merempan2 and menyoal2 on what has been happening… thanx God, i've always moved on.
no matter what, i have to keep moving on. but, that doesn't mean i can let go of it.
i've realised that yeah… there will be no love that can contend with the love i have for him. it's not that i won't give anyone else a chance, tapi aku rasa, what i feel for him (ok… belum past tense lagi) is one of a kind. it's the kind that would never die, the kind that comes back to menghantu-jerangkung in the middle of the night or even in the most secure part of my life. the kind that despite the hell raised on earth, it's still the slice of heaven very few ever see.
let it be said that somewhere in my head and heart, i know i have to have a little more sense for myself, but at least not without a degree of stubbornness that i'm known for. yea, aku keras atey, kepala batu… i know everybody knows that. but aku percaya some things are worth keeping all my life even though i walked up ahead from it.
even if it causes the nights of headaches and heartaches.
even if risks losing the chances for another person to love me.
some things are worth keeping in life for what they are.
it's just what a sentimental person is all about.
it's just what i am all about.
