aku adalah angin...

i'm always reminded of the old adage that becoz u're young, u should go for it. hit the sack late and rise up before dawn, the early bird catches the worm, u know, that sort of thing.

'u can becoz u’re young' they said. 'masa muda kena lah keja keras, dah tua bley rehat'. but is this the way the rat race works, with much aging and aching at the end of the line?

there’s no merit and tak guna pun nak ber-whining2 about the situation, i’m pretty demm sure about that. but being a pompuan yg suka menyoal2, harus lah i question it at times. am i truly up for it? is it becoz i’ve not found my niche? or maybe it’s merely a phase that pple in their twenties go through? perhaps i shouldn’t question at all and accept that it is indeed part of the 'bigger picture'.

no, it’s not that i’m without ambition.
no, it’s not because aku ni pemalas hampas.
and no, it’s not because i hate challenges.

i’m just peeking my nose out of the gutters to see what lies beyond the status quo, and pouting for not being able to see beyond my cloudy future.

i should trust God a whole lot more, kannn? He knows what to do. He always do.

and He reminds me of why i do it, and encourages me to push if i falter. He reminds me of the pple whom i am responsible to, pple who have given their all so i can have more, pple who love me for who i am. aint that enuf?

*sighs*