sepanjang idop aku, i've been a troubleshooter of all sorts of things. the insecure issues of life, the complications in relationship, the crisis of faith, and even the never ending other pples' problems. panggil la aku bzbodi or anything, but there is not a day that still goes by that i am not knee deep in the personal life of another person regardless of what situation i'm in. entah lah… aku sendiri almost forgot how all of this started in the first place let alone how many pple i have lent a hand over the years. whether that's a good thing or not.
i do not know.
what i do know is, it isn't a question anymore about where i am headed in life. i already made a conscious decision a long time ago that it would be my destiny to help pple. the question that still remains unanswered is what would be the final hand to carry out that destiny?
at the back of my mind that age old plan of the world is still there. just me doing what i can to set things right again. enough talking about how to bring back the civillity and unity of the human race. enough talk about trying to end stupidity in the world. enough of all the discussions and whatever issues and just carry it out like a good little soldier i was raised to be.
of course… the high goals and dreams carry with it a high standard and cost of getting there. some i have already paid. some am still paying. the rest… i don't even want to imagine what they are. in any case, where i'm standing right now is a very large obstacle which unfortunately is of my own creation. aku yg pilih jalan ni, with all the knowledge of the years that came from my troubleshooting experience.
i really don't know where to go from here.
yeah talk about irony.
can't help but wish that my room wouldn't be so empty.
but needful things often start from that.
and i hope that could be a good thing.
could it?
